random ramblings

It's nice to get attention.

Mon, 22 Feb 2010 16:16:42 -0500

Went downstairs to grab some lunch from the shop downstairs. Got into an elevator w/ two guys who were deathly silent. Wore my new blue cardigan shawl, skinny jeans and my black boots, hair down and tousled. Got awkward, so I tried to fill the silence by chomping on my cookie while I waited to get off on the 2nd floor. When I got off the elevator, I heard a guy whistle, and they started talking to each while the elevators closed.

Started smiling to myself. Attention is good.

The inevitable.

Thu, 11 Feb 2010 01:26:51 -0500

heartslove:

Heartbreak is not something that you can ignore. It’s not something that you can brush off and say that it’s nothing. It’s something that will hit you hard when you least expect it. It’s the pain in knowing that a love is gone and what you thought was there will no longer be. It’s the realization that something that you never wanted to end might be over forever. There’s no escaping it. Because when you feel it once, you’ll never want to feel it again.

"Maybe a happy ending doesn’t include a person, maybe…it’s you, on your own, picking up the pieces..."

Thu, 11 Feb 2010 01:15:32 -0500

“Maybe a happy ending doesn’t include a person,
maybe…it’s you, on your own, picking up the
pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for
something better in the future. Maybe the happy
ending is…just…moving on. Or maybe the happy
ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned
phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders
and misread signals, through all the pain and
embarrassment you never gave up hope.”

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Wed, 10 Feb 2010 10:39:17 -0500

"And I wonder if I ever cross your mind, for me it’s all the time."

Wed, 10 Feb 2010 10:37:05 -0500

“And I wonder if I ever cross your mind, for me it’s all the time.”

- Lady Antebellum

"Know yourself fully before making promises to another. Make many mistakes so you’ll know the right..."

Sun, 07 Feb 2010 01:15:15 -0500

“Know yourself fully before making promises to another. Make many mistakes so you’ll know the right decision when it really matters. Know when to hold on and when to let go. Love hard and often, and without reservation. Seek knowledge. Open yourself up to possibility. Keep your heart open, your head high and your spirit free. Embrace your darkness along with your light. Never mislead anyone, especially yourself. Have the courage to admit when you’re wrong. Awaken to the brilliance of ordinary moments. See goodness in the world. Strive to be your best. Be bold. Be grateful. Be wild and gloriously free. Be you.”

- Jeannete LeBlanc

"The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known..."

Sun, 07 Feb 2010 01:14:53 -0500

“The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These people have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. They are the beautiful angels living among us.”

- Elizabeth Kubler Ross

"No one ever really knows how much anybody else is hurting. We could be standing next to someone who..."

Sun, 07 Feb 2010 01:03:08 -0500

“No one ever really knows how much anybody else is hurting. We could be standing next to someone who is completely broken and not even know.”

- Unknown.

(all via Maluna)

Sun, 07 Feb 2010 01:03:00 -0500

(all via Maluna)

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Sun, 07 Feb 2010 01:02:21 -0500

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Sun, 07 Feb 2010 01:01:16 -0500

"He reached for her hand. “I don’t want to lose you.” His voice was almost in a whisper. She could..."

Sun, 07 Feb 2010 00:59:13 -0500

“He reached for her hand. “I don’t want to lose you.” His voice was almost in a whisper. She could feel the tears again, and she fought them back. “But you don’t want to keep me either, do you?” To that, he had no response.”

- The Rescue by Nicholas Sparks

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Sun, 07 Feb 2010 00:54:36 -0500

Nobody said it was easy

Sun, 07 Feb 2010 00:52:57 -0500

Questions of science,
science and progress,
do not speak as loud as my heart.

- Coldplay

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go,..."

Sun, 07 Feb 2010 00:46:31 -0500

“I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when their right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.”

- Marilyn Monroe

"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn’t supposed to ever let you down..."

Sun, 07 Feb 2010 00:34:00 -0500

“As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn’t supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it’s harder every time.You’ll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You’ll fight with your best friend. You’ll blame a new love for things an old one did. You’ll cry because time is passing too fast, and you’ll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you’ve never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you’ll never get back.”

"Don’t be flattered that he misses you. He should miss you. You’re deeply missable...."

Sun, 07 Feb 2010 00:31:00 -0500

“

Don’t be flattered that he misses you. He should miss you. You’re deeply missable. However, he’s still the same person who just broke up with you. Remember, the only reason he can miss you is because he’s choosing, every day, not to be with you.

It’s very tempting when you really want to be with someone to settle for much, much less — even a vague pathetic facsimile of less — than you would have ever imagined. Remember always what you set out to get and please don’t settle for less. These guys exist because there are a lot of women out there who allow them to.

Hey girl. Put down the penis, put your clothes back on, and go directly to your best friend’s house. Do not find an excuse to stay. Do not think that because of all the crazy hotness of it all, it now means that you’re meant to be together. Yes, break up sex does seem like a good idea, because hey, it’s nice to have sex with someone you have these dramatic feelings about. It makes it all, well, dramatic. But now you know. It confuses everything and makes you separate sex and emotions. So now you don’t ever have to make that mistake again. Got it? He’s into the very-bad-idea-that-masquerades-as-a-good-idea, breakup sex. Over and out.

He’s sniffing for something better, and when he doesn’t find it, he gets lonely and comes “home.” It’s not that he’s so into you. It’s that he’s so not into being alone. Don’t give him the chance to break up with you for the fourth time. (Even the idea of it sounds beneath you, doesn’t it?) Reset your breakup maximum to one and move on.

Cut him off. Let him miss you.

He doesn’t need to be reminded that you’re great.

There’s a guy out there who’s going to be really happy that you didn’t get back together with your crappy ex-boyfriend.

No matter how powerful and real your feelings may be for someone, if that person cannot fully and honestly return them and therefore actively love you back, these feelings mean nothing.

Being lonely … being alone … for many people … sucks. I get it, I get it, I get it. But still I have to say that yes, my belief is that being with somebody who makes you feel shitty or doesn’t honor the person you are is worse.

Life is hard enough as it is without choosing someone difficult to share it with.

You deserve to be with someone who is nice to you all the time.

”

- He’s Just Not That Into You

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Sun, 07 Feb 2010 00:29:53 -0500

Brokenhearted.

Tue, 26 Jan 2010 21:37:30 -0500

I miss the days where I would listen to sad songs and just enjoy them for their melody.

Now I have them on repeat because their mournful lyrics mirror the turmoil going on inside my heart and my head.

I am boggled at how I thought I knew him…until he broke my heart.

I wonder: why do I still love him? Why do I still care? After everything he’s done to me these past 6 months? The tears, the let downs, the dissapointment? How can I still love someone who carelessly swept my feelings to the side, who took my walls down, made me trust him, then pull my heart out of my chest with the words no girl ever wants to hear: “I just don’t think we were right for each other.”

It’s a complete 360 from a year ago, when we were hopelessly in love; when it took him 8 months of constant chasing to finally make me fall for him. A complete 360 from when he told me I was his world; that he wanted to spend the rest of his life with me; that he knew I was the one. I fell for those lines. I fell for his charm.

It bothers me that I was always the one to keep my guard up; I never let anyone too near my heart for fear of it being broken. Then I let my walls down, and went down hard. Exactly the thing I was hiding from.

I should’ve known it was too good to be true. He really didn’t know how to be in a relationship. His previous one lasted 6 months. He has no father figure to turn to; everyone in his family are divorced or unhappy in his marriage. Therefore he does not understand that love takes work. That love isn’t always a bed of roses…but that if you really cared about someone, you were willing, at all costs, to work on it .

He says that he still cares about me, but that he wants to be single. He says he could see me and him together in the future, but right now, he’s “gonna be by himself, figure things out himself”.

He let me go…the one person who was always there for him, who never ran out of his life.

Well, I may be stupid in love, but I do know one thing: it’s obvious that he no longer wants to be with me. He’s just not into me…anymore.

I didn’t deserve the pain he put me through, or the way he keeps me on the side for pleasure. I went through that phase where I blamed myself: What did I do? Did I do something wrong? Was I too clingy? Did I show him too much of me? Does he not like this or that?

Then I remembered something someone had told me: If someone isn’t willing enough to stick around and love you for you, then it’s obvious they just. don’t. care. Don’t waste your time. Life is too short to be anything but happy.

It hurts but I’ve got to move on.

"The worst thing is loving someone when you know you shouldn’t anymore. It’s caring about..."

Sun, 24 Jan 2010 23:52:53 -0500

“The worst thing is loving someone when you know you shouldn’t anymore. It’s caring about someone, wondering how they are and what they’re up to when the truth is they’ve stopped wondering about you a long time ago. The worst thing is remembering every single detail or your relationship when he’s obviously long forgotten about you. The worst thing is missing him so much when he doesn’t even realize you’re gone, the worst thing is feeling the same as you ever did, knowing you shouldn’t, because he doesn’t anymore.”